Since the induction was this afternoon it seemed that it would be best to come up on Thursday night and enjoy a day of freedom here in the "Little Apple". That also allowed Landry the chance to dress up and Trick or Treat for candy. Jentri went too and even received some treats, which of course her brother will enjoy long before she gets the chance to eat them. Uncle Jeb enjoyed the festivities with the kids by taking them from house to house. He is a good uncle!
Jentri is four months today! How time seems to fly. I have been thinking back to Landry's birth and I was able to be home with him for four months to the day I went back to work. It makes me sad that I wasn't able to do the same with Jentri, but I also feel blessed to have found a great babysitter. She is such a great baby! She only cries when she is hungry, or dirty. So it's easy to fix one problem and if that doesn't work then it has to be the other. Landry LOVES her and is a great big brother.
Things in QC are rough... for so many reasons, and yet we know that it is where God led us. We have moments that we wonder why, and then decide we many never know. The people have been good to us, we have made some good friends, and we love being back in small town. So, maybe that was the reason? I have to believe that God's plan is perfect even though what we go through isn't! I have struggled emotionally and personally in ways that are not typical of my personality. It's a side to myself that I truely HATE! It has been humbling and at times embarrassing, the way I have acted. I can't change it, but I can change my attitude and move forward in hopes that those who are abused by my behavior will find forgiveness in my regret!
I find the older I get the harder it is to accept change. Moves... as exciting as they can be are also difficult. The excitement of what the future holds and the fear of the change it brings can sometimes be overwhelming. I a lot has happened in the past four months, and I have been blessed in so many ways. It is my goal to seek the unseen and find the blessings daily, and stop worrying about the Earthly desires that I have. It is my sincere prayer that God will work on my heart to help me through the changes that the future holds... and the strength to endure them.